This data is released as a record of researches and results noted. It cannot be construed as a recommendation of medical treatment or medication. Note on freewheeling. On 28 June 1951, in a lecture, “The Completed Auditor,” to the First Annual Conference of Hubbard Dianetic Auditors, LRH gave a Final Report on Freewheeling. In this lecture he said that freewheeling does not benefit cases, and does not reduce engrams.

In Standard Procedure, one can shift rapidly over to straight memory and back to the engram again. But if you are running an engram and you do shift over to straight memory while you are running it, make sure you go back to the engram again because not doing so would be the same crime of failing to reduce an engram.

Sooner or later nearly every professional auditor is accused of being telepathic. People watch him audit and all of a sudden he will say, “Did somebody say ‘Get out’?” and the preclear will say, “No, they said ‘Get out of here.”’ What he has done is simply observe the physiological action of the toes. If the preclear is in an engram, the toes will wiggle. If he is in the vicinity of a grief discharge, he will gasp rather heavily. It may be shut off by control circuitry or any number of things, but the-auditor knows there is a grief discharge there if the preclear starts breathing stentoriously. And if the preclear has just skidded out of the engram and is riding above it on a bouncer but trying to go on with the engram anyway, his toes will stop wiggling. This is standard.

We have a very interesting subject which has considerably reduced the amount of time of Dianetic processing, and that is the chemical assist. Furthermore, this technique proofs the preclear against many mistakes.

Very often there is another sign. A person, when he goes into his own valence in the prenatal area, most commonly goes into a curled-up ball or a suggestion of it. If the preclear starts bringing his knees up, that is a tendency to start into one. Also, a preclear who is in the prenatal area usually has a tendency to roll over on his side, and when he flies out of his own valence and into another one he quite normally has a tendency to lie over on his back. So, if your preclear is running rather rolled up like a ball and all of a sudden rolls over on his back, you can tell that he has skidded out of his own valence.

I read a paper about the chemical assist which said that it was dangerous to work. I don’t know who the author of this was, but it doesn’t happen to be true.

The one exception to this is when running conception, particularly the sperm sequence, the preclear lies out straight. He has a tendency to wiggle his feet, only he hasn’t got muscles in order to do this wiggling, and it is a very frustrating experience to him. It is actually a sideways swimming motion. This isn’t something that one just dreams up and tells him he is supposed to feel. When he gets there he will feel it or he won’t, as the case may be.

The chemical assist has a dianetically technical name. It’s called Guk, after the material that the marines use to clean out their rifles. Somebody suggested that it be called Guk because it promoted garrulity, achieved personal unity and got knowledge out of the preclean But however bad a gag this was, it is called Guk and that is its technical name.

LRH: All right, Sue, let’s see what we can do here. How do you feel?

The history of Guk should be known to you. For a long time we had been scouting for the one-shot clear, whereby a person walks in, you take a hypodermic syringe and shoot it in his arm, he goes up against the ceiling and comes down clear. And we had been talking about this for some time as something feasible. Around 15 July 1950 a chemical engineer (the ex-director of research at the Bloch Chemical Company) told us about an atropine derivative that might be used.

PC: Fine.

Up to that time I wasn’t sure that the reactive mind and the analytical mind could be influenced independently of each other. If this could be done, then it would demonstrate that they were in two different compartments and that they were two different things and could be considered so as far as operation was concerned — that it wasn’t just the analytical mind all balled up that we also called the reactive mind, and that the reactive mind was one bin which could be emptied.

LRH: Who’s dead? (snap!) Just a question to start the ball rolling here.

I knew that the reactive mind had one perceptic that the analytical mind did not have and that was pain. The biochemical manifestation of the reactive mind is that it contains physical pain, unconsciousness and highly charged negative emotion. However, as far as perceptics are concerned, it contains pain, which is one perceptic more than the analytical mind has. But what is the biochemistry of pain?

PC: I was about to say everybody (laughs)

Along about 1931, 1932, I was wondering what life force was and whether or not we couldn’t conduit it, run it through electric wires and maybe pump up a dead person. These were wild thoughts, but perhaps life force was really a force. I have since found out that you can enormously influence it in the field of biochemistry (bioelectrical fields and so on). What these things are nobody knows, but the biochemistry of pain has been of great interest to me.

LRH: Everybody is dead?

It so happens that none of the soporifics are of any use in Dianetics. We thought that perhaps because these things came from plants maybe plants didn’t agree with animal organisms and that possibly there was some essential difference between these two things. I finally decided that maybe you could take bacteria and process it in such a way that it would develop some chemical that could be given to a human being which would get rid of engrams.

PC: I don’t know why.

Then one fine day a doctor from Bloch Chemical came up with the idea about one of these atropine derivatives. Of course, it is a plant — a herb. Nevertheless he insisted that we make a test of this because, according to him, it banished psychosomatic ills and had a long catalog of panaceas reputedly good for man and beast. Actually it does not do any of these things but it read convincingly when we looked it over.

LRH: You started to say everybody was dead? Hmm.

We shot it into three volunteers and I ran these three people and, lo and behold, their analytical minds had not been altered — they still thought the way they thought and they felt pretty good and so on. But the instant I took them down the track the engram bank was found to be glued down tight. You could take any one of these cases, each one of which was in the progress of an erasure, into the basic area and run a basic area engram, and you could go over it and over it and over it and no unconsciousness would come off — nothing would come off it. The somatic would turn on but it would not go away. It didn’t matter what you ran on the case. I went all the way up and down their time tracks trying to get something to reduce or erase, but this atropine had fastened down the engrams. This was the first clue that these might be two minds instead of just one.

PC: (laughing) I don’t know what prompted it.

We promulgated this information and a lady who does cancer research got an ambitious project together. She took three or four people and started to fill them full of everything which she knew influenced the nervous system in any slightest degree.

LRH: All right. How old are you?

This was the way Edison fixed up his storage batteries. And this was the way he found a “cure” for uremia. He took 97 pans full of uric acid crystals and finally filled them with all the fluids in his laboratory until one was found to dissolve the crystals. Actually he found two or three and those are the ones that are used by medicine today. This is a shotgun type of research, and that is the way this lady was going about it. Only she didn’t feel that she had time to be selective, so she simply took all of these pills and started shoving them down people’s throats in the most alarming doses. Certainly something happened to engrams. It was very, very strange.

PC: I don’t know.

She found out that you could tell the file clerk to give you somatics and the somatic strip to erase them, and the person would run engrams automatically while he was walking around!

LRH: Do you get a number flash with that?

These were considerable discoveries, and I had the strange job of going back and trying to find out what it was in all of this mass of pills that eased up the engram bank. The way she was doing it, it did not ease up the engram bank very much, but it did produce an effect.

PC: No.

Her technique also had to do with a prayer to the file clerk, and two preclears who were run with this particular technique demonstrated definite psychotic tendencies afterwards. So the technique needed modification, but she had made a very Sne and definite contribution.

LRH: No? Well, I’m going to do a very grave thing. I’m not going to give you an inventory first, just in the interest of speeding up the demonstration. Would you close your eyes. Any time in the future that I say to you the word canceled, it will cancel out what I have said to you while you are lying here on the couch. Okay?

In selecting these things out I found that there were several ingredients in her dosages that actively suppressed engrams, and these were working against those which loosened them up.

PC: Okay.

LRH: All right. Let’s go back to dinner last night.

The first premise of getting something that was of an animal tissue to affect the human body was evidently correct, because what worked out as the two most effective ingredients were glutamic acids and B1. Then there was B12, B6 which puts B1 into action further, and then, of course, vitamin C and some niacin. And that is the current state of the technique.

PC: Yes.

Glutamic acid and B1, given in sufficient quantity, seem to be able to counteract the biochemistry of pain and dissolve it. The dosage to do that is called Dose C in the Foundation packet right now. Dose C is 30 grains of glutamic acid (they are 7/-grain tablets and they look like horse pills); then there is 200 milligrams of B1, together with around 0.5 milligrams of B12. I am not prescribing this, by the way; I am merely telling you about a piece of research.

LRH: All right. Where are you sitting there?

In using this there is an additional ingredient that can be added to it with no danger whatsoever, and that is minerals. There are a lot of these tablets, such as Nutrilite, which have what is called a plant base. They are made of alfalfa which is raised out of soil heavily impregnated with minerals, and so one gets quite a mineral bomb out of it including calcium. I suspect that overdosage of glutamic acid and B1 upsets the calcium balance, so more calcium is needed in the system; and you should use a couple of these plant food tablets along with each one of these bomb doses on C if you want to be on the safe side, to eliminate the possibility of losing the calcium out of one’s teeth or some other area.

PC: Sat at a counter.

Dose A is very interesting. A, B and C have nothing to do with vitamins; they are merely designations. In Dose A there happens to be a large slug of vitamin A — 25,000 units; 200 milligrams of vitamin Be; a tablet (standard tablet size, it doesn’t matter what it is) of B6; and another tablet of B12 (it doesn’t matter what its strength is; we haven’t established it). Then there is a standard dose of vitamin E. It doesn’t matter how much; you evidently can’t overdose on vitamin E. Dose A is not given very often. Then there are 30 grains of glutamic acid and 100 milligrams of niacin, which is very important. The sunburn somatics do not erase unless there is niacin in the A dose.

LRH: Hm-hm. What are you doing there at the counter?

Before chemical researchers knew about engrams, they assigned to niacin the capability of setting the skin on fire and having some kind of a reaction. What they were doing was turning on sunburn somatics, and they thought that if you overdosed with niacin this would happen.

PC: Just eating and reading my book.

What actually happened was that when you overdosed with niacin the file clerk would hand out a sunburn somatic and it would reduce. Enough niacin, evidently, used enough times, will cause a person eventually to get rid of all of his sunburn and then niacin will no longer have that effect. So niacin was very badly libeled. They say an overdose will cause a flush. It is a very strange flush that starts at one place on the body and stops exactly at another, which is a typical niacin somatic. Then all of a sudden the back of the legs will start to burn. So don’t be startled if after an A dose you feel like somebody has turned a blowtorch on you.

LRH: Hm-hm. What’s the book look like?

Fifty milligrams of vitamin C completes A dose.

PC: It has a red couer on it. Language and Thought in Action by Hayakawa.

There is also a Triple A dose. I don’t know what happened to the Double A dose, but the Triple A dose contains 80 grains of glutamic acid and 20 milligrams of Benzedrine.’ By this time you are really getting a double handful of pills!

LRH: Let’s look at the face of the book, the page you’re reading, the exact page you’re reading there, and let’s taste what you are eating, simultaneously.

At the Foundation these doses are usually handed out under prescription by the medical director, but this material in single packages sells across the drugstore counter except for the Benzedrine. If you are going to mix it together in compounds however, and particularly if you are going to administer it to anybody, you want to check with a medical doctor to make sure it is all right. It is professional courtesy.

PC: Corned beef and cabbage.

A Triple A dose administered to a person who is relatively inaccessible produces a considerable effect upon him. He is liable to straighten up and sail right for a short time so that you can work him.

LRH: Well, let’s taste it. Take a mouthful of it.

The Triple A dose is an emergency dose which is given when the person is so badly stuck on the track that he is resisting the rest of the material; but the ordinary course of Dianetic Guk procedure is to hand out an A dose just before the session. You can expect it to be a long session too. That is intensive Guk processing. Intensive Guk processing and Guk processing are the same except that in intensive Guk processing you process the preclear for six, eight, ten or twelve hours. It is merely the duration of time that is meant by intensive.

PC: Tastes good.

You give a person an A dose a few minutes before you start to run him. After you have been running him half an hour give him another A dose; after you run him another half hour give him another A dose; then after you run another half hour give him another A dose. Then let him run two hours and give him a C dose; two hours — C dose; two hours — C dose; four hours — C dose; and from there on out you give him C doses every four hours. I don’t care whether you give it to him for ten days or ten months. Actually most of the somatics get worn out in a few weeks on anybody who will do one of these freewheels, ‘ to the point where he doesn’t have enough left to warrant much more freewheeling under Guk.

LRH: All right, tastes good. Now, what sounds are there around there while you’re eating your corned beef and cabbage?

However, as long as he is on Guk he should be taking one of these C doses every four hours, day and night. And first thing in the morning, on each successive day after you start the processing, give him an A dose. So he starts out with an A dose instead of the C dose that should be given at that time.

PC: Drinking coffee on my right side.

This will pretty well take care of physical pain. It makes engrams a lot easier to run and brings unconsciousness off the case much faster. Quite in addition to that, sometimes you can run a physical pain engram well up the bank and get a reduction on it that you wouldn’t ever get before. Sometimes you start running a preclear under Guk and engrams will start coming up . . n cnalns

LRH: Somebody is drinking coffee on your right side. Okay.

I must stress, however, that it is not in itself an automatic clearing mechanism. People get confused about Guk. They think it is something like a medicine-show bottle of snakeroot oil. It is not. It doesn’t banish all the ills of man and beast in 24 hours. It is a chemical assist, and you should let that word assist, all by itself, be the clue as to how you use it.

PC: Yeah, making noise.

You give it to a person when you are auditing that person and it makes your auditing more effective and safer, but don’t depart one iota from Standard Procedure. Reduce every engram you contact. It is Standard Procedure, and it is so much so now that in the Foundation they don’t standard process without Guk. In other words, Standard Procedure includes Guk. That is because it is so much faster and you are burning up the time of a professional auditor. For instance, a couple of the cases used in recent demonstrations would have resolved very much faster if they had been on Guk.

LRH: All right. Let’s go back to the first time you saw a motion picture.

The way you use it is exactly like Standard Procedure. If you want to audit a person for hours and hours and hours, that is intensive Guk processing. If you start a person on Guk you should prepare to run him at least a Standard Procedure period of two hours. After that put him on freewheeling and run him consecutive days on Standard Procedure, each time a couple of hours. What is important is to keep up your processing. Between these periods he is going to be on freewheeling. This is new. It does not knock out Standard Procedure. Freewheeling was originally called “automatic running” but the word is so close to “autorunning,” which is very bad, that we changed the name of it.

PC: Oh, that was a long time ago.

A person who is stuck on the time track cannot freewheel and he should be freed on the time track by Standard Procedure and only by Standard Procedure. In other words, put him in reverie, run him back down the track, go through full-dress-parade processing and get him moving on the track. Then you bring him up to present time, give him the canceler, and put him back on freewheeling. Don’t start shotgunning this case just because he is on freewheeling by making him repeat all sorts of phrases in present time, because you will drag him back down the track and he will go walking off someplace while he is actually caught in an engram somewhere, and Guk won’t knock out the engram for him.

LRH: All right. Well, let’s just return to it.

“I” is kept in present time on freewheeling, the file clerk is handing out somatics and the somatic strip is sweeping them. In Standard Procedure, the bulk of “I” is down the track with the somatic strip, working with things handed out by the file clerk. That is the difference between freewheeling and Standard Procedure. And one mustn’t do anything to knock “I” out of present time when a person is freewheeling or start making him run engrams over and over, because you will drag “I” out of present time.

PC: First motion picture I saw was an outdoor movie.

If you haven’t started anybody on freewheeling or haven’t had this done to you, you are going to be enormously surprised. I guinea-pigged on this. I walked into a very mysterious atmosphere of big secrets one night. (I had to talk for some time to wipe away the idea that such a thing should be kept secret.) The next thing I knew I was having these pills shoveled into my throat. For a long time now I have had somewhere in the neighborhood of three-quarters of my engram bank erased, and I didn’t think there was very much left on the track, but to my surprise there were sunburns and all sorts of things. I started to freewheel, and suddenly there was a pain in one part of the body, and I no more than started to wonder what could have hit me between the eyes when there was an awful pain somewhere else, and then there was a pain in my stomach, and then my teeth hurt; then I got red all over and felt bad about the whole thing, and then that was gone. I wondered what was happening to me. I wasn’t worried. These engrams weren’t restimulating so as to worry me. What was happening was the somatics were running off one right after the other and they.were actually erasing.

LRH: Well, let’s take a look at it.

It is an amazing thing but you don’t get the same somatic twice. It is hard to realize that one has been hurt as many times as he has. What was happening was that in the previous processing through which I had gone, little scraps of engrams had been left. The somatic strip hadn’t been moved up all the way to the front of this or that engram, and there would be some little somatic left which would flick on and erase almost immediately. I would be walking down the street and all of a sudden would have the feeling of getting a black eye. I was running on this when I gave a lecture, and I stopped a moment at the desk and flinched most horribly. Everybody looked at me and wondered what was happening because I hadn’t let anything out about Guk yet. The fact of the matter was that somebody had just kicked me in the stomach. I was so curious about this that afterwards I tried to remember some time when somebody had kicked me in the stomach, and all of a sudden I remembered a childhood fight.

PC: A western.

It is quite amazing when you start to add up the number of times a fellow has been hit, kicked, has fallen, has hit his shins, and so on. All this material runs out under Guk if the person will freewheel. If he won’t freewheel he is stuck on the track, and you start him on the track with Standard Procedure as covered earlier. That is the safest way to do it.

LRH: It’s a western? All right, where are you sitting there?

There is another method which is much less safe but which can be practiced, and that is to say to the preclear, “Are you moving? (snap./)”

PC: On a wooden bench.

He gives you a flash answer, yes or no, and if he says no, you say, “Holder? (snap./)”

LRH: How does it feel?

He says, “No.”

PC: Uncomfortable.

You say, “Denyer? (snap./)”

LRH: Hm-hm. Is there any sound with this?

“No.”

PC: No, silent.

“Bouncer? (snap!)”

LRH: It’s a silent. Let’s look at a subtitle.

“Yes.”

PC: I couldn’t read too well.

“When I count from one to five, give me a bouncer. One-two-three-fourfive (snap./).” And he reacts physically.

LRH: Couldn’t read too well. Who was reading it to you?

There is plenty in store for him under freewheeling, because the somatics that he is furnishing (which, of course, are his own somatics, but they are to some extent dubbed in from the out-of-valence character he is being) will go on and on and tomorrow they will be just a little bit stronger. He is working into his own valence somewhat. Then maybe three, four, five days later, he has worked thoroughly enough back into his own valence so that he is running his own somatics and he will start running them with a vengeance; and then he won’t consider anything as a somatic unless it hits him hard. The difference is that a person who is out of valence will run these very faintly at first, but they will grow stronger.

PC: Nobody.

I have not yet found anyone getting in trouble because he was freewheeling while going about through the society. I have seen people very amused sometimes by it, but I haven’t heard of anyone falling under an automobile wheel or something of the sort. Old Man Necessity Level’ will take care of that. I have seen people, when they were perfectly safe sitting in a living room, all of a sudden roll up in a fetal position and fall off a chair. It looks silly and it is something that I wouldn’t advise anyone to do in good company, but it will happen once every few cases when they are running in freewheeling.

LRH: Nobody? Nobody reading it to you. That’s a sad state.

What happens evidently is that the perceptics, the unconsciousness, the emotion, are still on this engram, but the somatic is being pulled out from underneath it. This doesn’t make the engram hard to locate. Some people may protest that they use their somatics to know whether or not they are really in the engram, but this sort of thing shouldn’t be. They are using the somatic as validating material. You will find out that once they don’t have the pain there to knock them out of valence, they will still have unconsciousness and so on, and this thing will go away rather rapidly.

PC: Uh-huh.

For example, I was running a preclear who had never had birth touched before and for some reason, after we had run four or five incidents in the basic area, the file clerk handed up birth.

LRH: All right. Now let’s take a look at the actor there. Take a look at the actor. (pause) Let’s take a look at him. Feel that bench under you and take a look at the actor.

He was a screamer, and we started through this engram with the volume all the way up. My poor ears! I thought, “The somatic on this must be horrible!” We started back through it again and all of a sudden there was no engram. It was gone. I tried to find out if he had bounced or if it was denied suddenly, but no, it was right there. He was suddenly in his own valence. It was the first time he had ever been there, and he found it very strange. It was as if he was living in a new house, and he lay there at the end of this birth engram feeling very comfortable about the whole thing. He was very hard to persuade to continue. He had never been this comfortable before in his life! I managed to get him back through it again and got about two yawns off it and that was the end of that birth somatic.

PC: No, it was the villain that bothered me.

I didn’t know it at the time I was running him but he had been doing a freewheel for about eight days and then had been taken off and run in Standard Procedure and not put back on freewheeling. And during the freewheel the birth somatic had been knocked out. I then went up and down the bank and found several of these engrams that no longer had any somatic under them. That is an example of what usually happens in freewheeling.

LRH: Oh, it’s the villain. Let’s take a look at the villain. Any music playing while this was going on?

So Standard Procedure is shortened by freewheeling, but a person will not freewheel to clear.

PC: No.

This is not a panacea for all our ills. He will freewheel out of existence scores, even hundreds, of somatics, so that when he is going up the track on an erasure they don’t get much in his road; all he does is run out perceptics and unconsciousness.

LRH: All right. Let’s take a look at the villain. What’s he doing?

It is of no benefit to give a person a lot of Guk and start him freewheeling, then go off and leave him and not give him any standard processing. The gain on that would be so slight as to be negligible. What you are doing is a chemical assist, and freewheeling is an assist to Standard. Procedure. It softens up the engram bank.

PC: Disturbing the girl.

The exact formula for starting a person to freewheel goes as follows: The preclear is in present time, eyes open. Install the canceler. Then say to him, “The file clerk will furnish somatics.

LRH: Doing what?

The somatic strip will continue to erase these somatics one after the other until no somatics remain on the case.” That is all it is, and please don’t expand this.

PC: Disturbing the girl.

When you want this preclear to go into Standard Procedure be absolutely sure that before you start you say, “Come up to present time. Canceled (snap./),” so that the somatic strip will come up to present time and the freewheeling will turn off; because a person can freewheel and run another engram — he can do two of these things at once — and he can also get flash answers on other subjects. The attention units will divide up like that; so stop him from freewheeling.

LRH: Yeah? What’s he doing to her?

Now you can run Standard Procedure. Put him in reverie with the words “Now lie down; shut your eyes. Any time in the future that I say the word canceled, whatever I’ve said to you while you were lying here will be canceled. The file clerk will now give us the engram necessary to resolve the case. The somatic strip will go to the beginning of the engram. When I count from one to five the first words of the engram will flash into your mind. One-two-three-four-five (snap./).” And he will, if he is running like he ought to, pick up engrams and you can erase them.

PC: Trying to drag her with him.

Run him on Standard Procedure reducing everything you run into exactly as it says in Bulletin No. 1, ‘ and then when you are finished with that process bring him up to present time and say, “Canceled (snap./),” and have him sit up. Install a new canceler and then say to him, “The file clerk will . . .” and so on. That is the sum total of this all-out process.

LRH: Trying to drag her away, huh? What’s he look like?

If a person stops freewheeling, you can ask him if he is moving and whether it is a holder or a bouncer and so forth. But be very careful of it in this respect — and this is a warning which should have a skull and crossbones symbol on it: If you are running a heavy circuitry case, a case which has lots of “Control yourself,” a case which is doing auto or who can hypnotize himself — any one of these heavy circuitry cases — you can give him all the Guk you want to, but hit for that circuitry. Whenever you get a heavy circuitry case that won’t run very well in Standard Procedure, start heading toward knocking out the circuitry.

PC: Oh, he has one of those handlebar mustaches.

The beauty of it is that when a person is on Guk, engrams a little distance up the bank will occasionally erase or reduce when they really shouldn’t. For instance, when you run him in Standard Procedure and get up to an engram 21/2 months after conception and start to run it, it sticks, and you have to start earlier on the case and find engrams there. However, on the administration of Guk you will discover, often enough to make it very well worth your while to look, that when you hit one of these engrams 21/2 months after conception (or some other engram that isn’t supposed to erase, particularly in the prenatal area) it will reduce, and it may erase, and you may get unconsciousness off it. In fact I have seen some people running under Guk who got unconsciousness off any part of the bank they touched. And that is extremely important because that unconsciousness nails down engrams. The Guk does not erase the unconsciousness but it will knock out the pain, and this permits the unconsciousness to come off. Unconsciousness seems to be a type of by-product of pain, but it must be somewhat different because this particular brand of Guk doesn’t dissolve it.

LRH: Okay. Now who comes in on this scene? Anybody come in on this scene? Or am I anticipating the movie plot? (pause) Anybody come in on this scene?

When you go into a case that is very heavy with circuitry and is doing autocontrol, be careful of this case where Guk is concerned. And when you start the preclear freewheeling, be uery careful of this case. Make sure that you make it your first order of business to knock out that control circuitry if you can possibly find it. Get this person into a more stable state. By Straightwire find the dramatization, then get that dramatization as early as possible in the bank and erase it.

PC: Yeah, the cowboy does.

If you keep this person freewheeling, he will do the following; he can’t resist it. There is a sort of internal auditor that is saying to him all the time, “Now, you’ll have to control yourself.

LRH: Oh, the cowboy. Now what does the cowboy look like?

You’ll have to do it yourself. You’ll have to do it yourself. You have to do what you’re told, you know,” and so on. When the person starts freewheeling he will feel this somatic and that somatic, and for a short while it will be all right. Then all of a sudden he will say, “Hmmm, I wonder what that engram is all about? Let’s see, that’s a pain in the ear. Oh, yes, I bet that’s the time that boy hit me and said, ‘You darn fool.’ Yes, I’m sure it is. ‘You darn fool. You darn fool. You dam fool. You darn fool,”’ and down the track he goes right into the engram and gets stuck on the track. But he isn’t satisfied with that, because the second his attention units go into this engram they are absorbed and he is, for a moment, unconscious. So he comes up out of this engram, forgets he was running “You dam fool” and says, “Letb see, what else was I running? Oh, yes, ‘You talk too much,’ that was it. ‘You talk too much, you talk too much,”’ and he goes down into that engram. Then his attention units turn off and he glances off that one and goes into another engram and another and another and another, all over the track.

PC: Well, I wasn’t too much interested in looks then.

When you see people do this, the cause of it is circuitry, and you should get the circuitry dramatizations and work out the “Control yourself” and “You have to do it yourself” and so forth in Standard Procedure. This is not fatal. I have seen people in the most remarkably snarled-up conditions because of this autorunning and they have managed to live through it.

LRH: Hm-hm. All right, let’s see if we can take a look at this cowboy now.

So when you start a person freewheeling, check them over once in a while and find out if they are trying to run engrams all by themselves. Freewheeling is not running engrams by oneself.

PC: He has his hat pushed back.

The somatic strip and the file clerk will work very handsomely and “I” doesn’t pay any attention to them at all. He can ignore them and they will still go on running out somatics for him. If you haven’t seen this and you haven’t done it, you have got some amazing experiences in store for you.

LRH: Yeah. Has he got a gun on?

Right now we are trying to find out what will dissolve unconsciousness and what will knock out painful emotion. There may be, somewhere in the amino acids or maybe even in choline or some such product, something which makes it possible for all of these engrams to erase leaving only the perceptics, which would of course automatically refile in the standard memory bank. If that is possible, then we will have a freewheeling clear. He might have to run six months in order to accomplish this because it would be very slow, but theoretically he could run himself clear.

PC: Right.

However, the standard formula as it exists now only knocks out pain. It does not touch unconsciousness and it does not touch the perceptics or emotion, although it will do the following: Sometimes when a person is busily knocking out an engram, all of a sudden he will start to yawn. The unconsciousness will come off in yawns although he will not be tired at all.

LRH: Kind of inevitable.

This is because unconsciousness is assisted off the case when the pain is taken out from underneath it.

PC: Hm-hm.

The future of the chemical assist is very broad. Lacking the knowledge of engrams, chemical research in the past is, as far as our purposes are concerned, relatively invalid. The whole field of chemistry and pharmacology is wide open.

LRH: All right. Now, let’s go back to the time when you got your first doll. Is that earlier?

So far soporifics have been tested and rejected as being of any assistance in Dianetics. That whole block of sedatives like scopolamine, opium, phenobarbital and so on are of no assistance in Dianetics and have been moved out. They are called hypnotics. Actually they are not; they are a sort of analgesic, although the true analgesics are really hypnotics.

PC: Oh, I don’t like that one.

Atropine and all its derivatives are evidently of no value, although they haven’t been investigated thoroughly. Now we have everything left from common table salt down to the last complex molecule of whatever-it-is to investigate. Right now the investigation is narrowed down to the known amino acids; and perhaps in the mineral base of plant food there may be an assist. Maybe some heavy dosages of minerals may help.

LRH: Well, let’s go back to the time you got it, anyway.

Evidently what is occurring at this nutritional level is that the cells are being furnished with food they need in order to jettison pain. There is some relationship between food, nutrition and pain. I don’t know what it is. Once upon a time man might have been a self-clearing organism.

PC: All right.

There is one other caution on this chemical assist: Don’t expect your preclear to live on sandwiches and coffee and take all these relatively expensive foods in their pure state and still do a good freewheel and handle himself well under Guk, because he won’t. From cursory findings, any of this should be supplemented by a high protein diet with minimal carbohydrate.

LRH: All right. What about this doll?

These findings only have a series of about ten behind them and are not definite, but we do know from observation of this series that when the person is on a bad diet, Guk doesn’t do him very much good. It is not one of these things that you can measure easily. However, don’t expect a person to starve and live on Guk, because the Guk will simply be absorbed in nutrition; and you don’t want it for nutrition; you evidently want it for super-feed material. It may be that this whole Guk program will boil down to the fact that we are fooling the cells into believing that all is plenitude, sweetness and light in the world and that no further combat uses exist for engrams. This is possible. But however it is, the cells do knock out the pain.

PC: I pushed its eyes in.

One of these days we are going to have time enough to go back and find out what the chemistry of pain is. We don’t know yet and until we do we can only hit at the problem a la Edison and the saucers experiment. There is going to be a tremendous amount discovered on this in the next four or five months; but I am sure from the work I have already done and seen in this field that, no matter how much the chemical formula of Guk changes, the Standard Procedure-

LRH: Yeah?

PC: Uh-huh, and I was spanked.

The important points are these:

LRH: How old are you there, taking a look at this doll for the first time?

1. Use Standard Procedure whether the person is on Guk or off Guk. Guk is merely an assist to Standard Procedure auditing.

PC: I don’t know.

2. In freewheeling do not expect a person to just start freewheeling and then, by some magic, turn out to be clear. He won’t. You can expect a person to hang up a couple of times a day in freewheeling. They get stuck-in holders someplace and all of a sudden have a bad pain, but the pain doesn’t bother them much.

LRH: All right. Can we get back to a time there when you’re lying in a crib?

Don’t be frightened by the mention of the word pain in connection with this, because actually I have found people very cheerful about having their heads knocked in while they were running freewheeling in Guk. A

PC: Oh, no!LRH: Well, let’s go back to a time somebody is burping you.

PC: Oh, no!LRH: Oh, let’s go back to a time somebody is burping you. (pause) Maybe you can return to a moment somebody’s burping you.

PC: No.

LRH: See if you can return to it. (pause) How does it feel to be burped?

PC: (pause) No.

LRH: Well, let’s return to a moment there somebody’s giving you a bottle.

PC: (pause) No.

LRH: Just return to a moment somebodyb giving you a bottle there.

PC: I was never a baby.

LRH: Never a baby. All right, lets return to the moment there now when you get a tricycle.

Do you ever get a tricycle?

PC: Oh, no!

LRH: No, never got a tricycle. How about a wagon?

PC: No.

LRH: Let’s return to the first time you knew a little boy who had a wagon.

PC: Yes.

LRH: All right, lets return and take a look at him.

PC: (deep breath) Oh, that was Tommy.

LRH: Yeah?

PC: Uh-huh.

LRH: And what’s Tommy doing?

PC: Ha, letting the kids ride in the wagon.

LRH: Hm-hm. What’s happening with this wagon?

PC: We’re just riding down a hill.

LRH: How does the wagon sound going down the hill? (pause) How’s the wind in your face?

PC: I like it.

LRH: You like it?

PC: Uh-huh.

LRH: Does he make any noise?

PC: Oh no, we’re just laughing.

LRH: Oh, you’re laughing. All right. Now let’s see if we can get back a little bit earlier than this. Let’s go back to your second birthday. (pause) Second birthday.

PC: Two.

LRH: All right, let’s see if we can find any place on the track where there’s a candle — two or three candles in a cake.

PC: Oh, no!

LRH: Well, let’s just see if we can, just on an off chance there might be one.

PC: There wasn’t.

LRH: All right. Let’s see if we can go back to the first time you ever got taken outside in a baby buggy. (pause) Baby buggy, let’s take a look at this baby buggy.

PC: (pause) No.

LRH: No?

PC: No.

LRH: No baby buggies?

PC: No.

LRH: No? No baby buggies. Let’s take the first time you ever dropped out of a hammock.

PC: Oh, yes!

LRH: All right, let’s take the first time you ever dropped out of a hammock.

PC: It hurt!

LRH: All right. How do you fall?

PC: Just wound ouer.

LRH: Hm-hm. Did it hurt very much?

PC: Fell on my stomach.

LRH: Hurt very much?

PC: Yes.

LRH: Hm-hm. Who picks you up?

PC: I did.

LRH: Hm-hm. Who else is there?

PC: No one. I can’t see....

LRH: What have you got on, rompers?

PC: No!

LRH: No? A little dress?

PC: Yes.

LRH: All right. Did you feel any of that pain?

PC: (sighs) It always hits me in the stomach.

LRH: Huh?

PC: Hit me in the stomach.

LRH: Hm. Did you feel the pain? (pause) Let’s go back through it again. Let’s fall off that thing. Are you watching yourself fall off of it, or are you right there.

PC: Oh, no!

LRH: All right, let’s fall off it. Let’s fall off it.

PC: It doesn’t feel good.

LRH: Well, let’s do it again. Let’s go back to the moment you’re on the swing. Swing making any noise?

PC: It isn’t a swing; it’s a hammock.

LRH: Oh, its a hammock? All right, on the hammock.

PC: Yeah.

LRH: Now, let’s pick it up at the moment you fell off. Let’s get the sensation of falling there.

PC: (pause) scratched my arm.

LRH: All right, let’s go over it again.

PC: (pause) Doesn’t hurt.

LRH: Can’t you feel the pain? All right, let’s get back on the hammock again. Was the hammock swung too far when you fell off it?

PC: Oh, I was swinging it.

LRH: All right, there you go. Now, let’s go to the moment where you fall off. How did it feel this time?

PC: (sighs) Bang.

LRH: Bang.

PC: Right on my stomach.

LRH: All right, how does it feel?

PC: My arms.

LRH: You got the pain out of it now?

PC: It’s way down deep.

LRH: Hm-hm. All right, let’s go back to the moment you are swinging in the hammock.

PC: But I like that.

LRH: All right, let’s swing it.

PC: Hm.

LRH: Swinging in the hammock.

PC: Hm-hm.

LRH: All right, back and forth. All right, let’s pick it up the moment you fall out.

PC: (pause) Ah, that makes me feel like bawling.

LRH: Oh, yeah? All right. Was the pain very much there?

PC: It was more surprise, I think. It didn’t hurt too much.

LRH: Oh. Do you get a somatic as you go through this? (pause) Got a somatic?

PC: Right here in my stomach.

LRH: Okay. Let’s go back to the moment you’re swinging in the hammock.

PC: (pause) But I’d rather stay there swinging. I like that.

LRH: All right, let’s swing. Let’s swing. Now, the somatic strip will move up to the moment you fall — boom.

PC: (pause) But I’m hurt again. Nobody is coming to me.

LRH: Hm-hm. (pause) All right, let’s go over it again. Let’s swing in the hammock, swing in the hammock, swing in the hammock. There you are, swing in the hammock. Now, let’s pick it up the moment you fall out — boom. How do you feel?

PC: That’s it, I’m hurt.

LRH: Yeah?

PC: Nobody comes near.

LRH: How does this feel? How is the somatic on this, this time?

PC: It’s just down here.

LRH: Did it hurt very much? Is the somatic lighter than it was?

PC: Yes.

LRH: Oh, it is lighter than it was. Okay. Let’s roll it again. (pause) Swing, swing, swing, and out of the hammock — boom. All right, did you feel it that time? How did it feel that time?

PC: Trouble is, I’m still swinging. I can’t stop!

LRH: (laughs) All right. The somatic strip will go through the swinging, go through the swinging, then come up to the moment you start to fall, and then off you go — boom — now.

PC: (sadly) I scraped my arm.

LRH: Do you feel that scrape on your arm?

PC: Yeah.

LRH: Makes you feel sad?

PC: Because nobody comes.

LRH: Got a somatic on it now?

PC: Yeah. On my arm.

LRH: Oh, you got a somatic on your arm now?

PC: Uh-huh.

LRH: Okay. Let’s return back to the moment you are swinging in the hammock. Let’s swing, swing, swing, let’s swing in the hammock, swing in the hammock, before you fall. All right. Now, all of a sudden, off the hammock you go — boom. How is the somatic?

PC: (takes a deep breath) I just walk away now.

LRH: Just walk away. You got any pain on it now?

PC: No.

LRH: What do you think about this incident?

PC: Oh, at the time I was hurt.

LRH: Well, how do you feel about this incident now?

PC: Oh, it doesn’t bother me.

LRH: Doesn’t bother you now.

PC: No.

LRH: Still got a somatic as we go through it?

PC: No. Not even in the stomach.

LRH: Uh-huh, all right. Now, how about going back to a time somebody dropped you, the first time anybody dropped you.

PC: Dropped me? (pause)

LRH: Let’s contact all of this.

PC: I wasn’t dropped.

LRH: Now, the somatic strip will go back to a moment when you were a little baby and you were dropped. (long pause) Somatic strip contact the moment you dropped? The file clerk will give us a moment you dropped. Now, the somatic strip will contact the moment you hit. The file clerk will give us the moment you dropped. The file clerk will give us the moment you dropped. Now the somatic strip will contact just before you hit, sweep straight through, and boom. Now, have you got a somatic?

PC: No, I just seem to be floating in space.

LRH: All right. Do you have a somatic of any kind?

PC: No.

LRH: Haven’t got a somatic of any kind, huh? The file clerk will give us the time your mother is giving you a bottle. The file clerk will give us a time your mother is giving a bottle.

PC: Don’t talk about that.

LRH: Let’s see if we can’t contact it. (long pause) Contact it? Let’s contact a moment somebody is singing you a song, and you are a little baby. Somebody is singing you a song. Let’s contact a moment somebody is singing you a song, all right? Rocking you back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. Can you contact that, hm? (pause) Can you contact that?

PC: It’s just a strange feeling.

LRH: What’s the feeling?

PC: Of imagining being a baby.

LRH: Hm-hm, all right. What do you see there? What’s your visio as you’re lying there being a baby? (pause) Hm?

PC: I guess there was a crib.

LRH: Well, take a look at it.

PC: I saw the crib before.

LRH: Let’s take a look at it. (pause) Let’s take a look at it. Now, who comes up to the crib?

Pick it up there at a moment somebody comes up to the crib. (pause) Somebody walks up to the crib. Let’s take a look at them. (long pause) Let’s take a look at them.

PC: (sighs) I can’t see her. (long pause) All I can see as . . .

LRH: What do you see?

PC: Just holding on to the side of the crib.

LRH: You’re holding on? Who else is there? Is somebody else there?

PC: (pause) Ears are ringing.

LRH: Hm?

PC: My ears are ringing.

LRH: Ears ringing as you are lying there in the crib?

PC: Yeah.

LRH: How do you feel lying there in the crib?

PC: Oh, I’m sitting.

LRH: You’re sitting in the crib.

PC: Yes.

LRH: And who comes in the room? Let’s pick it up there at a moment when somebody comes in the room.

PC: A man.

LRH: All right, what does he look like? (pause) What does the man look like? Just take a look at him. You can see him, can’t you? (pause) Hm?

PC: He just stands and looks at me.

LRH: He just stands and looks at you? Hm-hm. What does he say to you? Let’s contact the moment when he says something to you. Does he speak to you? What does he look like?

PC: He has got black hair and brown eyes.

LRH: What does he say?

PC: He’s got black hair and brown eyes.

LRH: Yeah. Is he good-looking?

PC: (long pause) He has a white shirt on. He’s not handsome but he’s not bad looking.

LRH: Not bad looking. All right, you see what he looks like? All right. Now, let’s go to a moment when a woman comes in. Let’s go to a moment when a woman enters. (pause) Contact a moment there when a woman enters?

PC: Well, I just want to put my hands out.

LRH: Yeah, and what does the woman do? (long pause) Well, what does she do? Put your hands out to her, what does she do? (long pause) What does she do?

PC: I can’t imagine me as a baby.

LRH: All right. Let’s take a look at her. Let’s take a look at this woman. I’m not asking you to imagine it. Just be there for a moment and take a look at this woman. What does she do when you put your hands out to her? What does she do when you put your hands out to her?

PC: Well, she picked me up.

LRH: Yeah? What does she say to you when she picks you up? (pc sighs) Have you still got a visio on her?

PC: She’s pretty.

LRH: Sheb very pretty, huh? What color is her hair?

PC: Curly brown.

LRH: Curly brown hair. What kind of clothes is she wearing? (pause) What kind of clothes is she wearing?

PC: Blue dress, it’s got a white trimming around the neck.

LRH: Hm-hm, white trim around the neck. Is she pretty?

PC: Yes!

LRH: Hm-hm. How is her voice? (pause) How is her voice? (long pause) What does her voice sound like?

PC: Well, she’s happy-looking.

LRH: Sheb what?

PC: Happy.

LRH: Yeah, she’s happy-looking. All right, now what does her voice sound like?

PC: I don’t understand it.

LRH: What’s she saying? What language? A different language?

PC: Yes!

LRH: Well, what language is it? Try to repeat some of it. (pause) Let’s go over what shed saying and just repeat it, syllable by syllable. (pause) All right, just repeat the words after she is saying them. All right, pick up the first word she says. How does it sound? Go to the moment of the first word she says. How does it sound?(pc laughs) What is it?

PC: Babushka.

LRH: “Babushka.” (pc laughing again) All right. What’s the next word she says? (pause) What’s the nest word she says?

PC: Oh, there’s hurting. What is it?

LRH: Hm? What’s hurting? What’s hurting?

PC: I mean, what’s up there?

LRH: What’s up where? What’s the matter? What’s she saying? Go over the word “Babushka.”

PC: Babushka.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Babushka.

LRH: All right, let’s take a look at her. What does she look like? What does she look like when she says that?

PC: Eyes wide open.

LRH: Yeah.

PC: Smile on her face.

LRH: Smile. And what’s the next word she says? (pause) Just repeat the phonetics. Hard to repeat? (pause) Hm? (pause) What are the words? You know what they are.

PC: (mutters)

LRH: Well, imitate the next phrase, just imitate the next word. Just imitate its phonetics. (pause) Can you imitate its phonetics? Does she say any words again? Is the man still there? Do you see the man? (pause) Huh?

PC: It was just that . . .

LRH: Just what?

PC: He was standing there, and she picked . . .

LRH: Picks you up and what happens? What happens when she picks you up? What does he say? Does he say anything?

PC: I can’t hear anything he says.

LRH: All right. What’s the furniture in the room like? (pause) What’s the furniture in the room like? Let’s take a look at the furniture in this room.

PC: Just looking around and seeing it.

LRH: All right. Now, what does the furniture look like? song pause) What does the furniture look like? Has it got frills on it, fringes?

PC: It’s a feather bed. (laughs)

LRH: Oh, its a feather bed. Okay. Are these your parents? Take a look at them. (pause) Hm? Are these your parents? (pause) Let’s take a look at the woman again. Take a look at her. Now, you know what she looks like; now, you can remember. What does she look like? Who is she? Who is the woman? Your parents? (pause) Your parents? (pause) Is that who it is? (pause) You know. You know. (pause) What about them? Are they?

PC: She’s dancing around the room with me in her arms.

LRH: Oh, you’re cheating on us here. You’re enjoying this too much.

PC: (laughs) No, I’m not.

LRH: Is it fun? Hm?

PC: Uh-huh.

LRH: May I ask you a question?

PC: Yes.

LRH: How old were you when your parents left?

PC: (deep breath; pause)

LRH: How old were you?

PC: I want to say 2.

LRH: You wanted to say 2? You mean you don’t remember your parents?

PC: No-o-o-o!

LRH: You’ve never seen them before?

PC: If they are, don’t take them from me, please don’t.

LRH: Is this the first time you’ve seen these people? (pause) Hm?

PC: Yes. I was never even a baby before.

LRH: Let’s come on up to the moment when they leave you, up to the moment when they leave you.

PC: (tearfully) But why did they?

LRH: All right, let’s come up to the moment when they leave you. The moment when you leave them.

PC: I didn’t leave them.

LRH: What happened? (pause) What happened?

PC: Oh.

LRH: Come on up to the moment when they go away. Come on up to the moment when they go away. You can; you’re right there. Let’s take a look at them. What do they say to you? Do they say anything to you when they go away? (pause) Let’s take a look at them. (long pause) Right to the moment they’re leaving you. Your somatic strip can go to the last moment you see them, the last moment you see them, the last moment you see them. Now take a look at them. Take a look at them. What do they say to you? What are you seeing there? What do you see now? Tell me. You can tell me. You can tell me.

PC: All I see is a horrible nun.

LRH: A nun? You see a nun? What happens? Go to the last moment you saw your parents, the last moment you saw your parents. (pause) The last moment you saw them. The somatic strip is right there. Now take a look at them. Take a look at them.

PC: No, at least . . .

LRH: Take a look at them, the last moment you saw them. What’s happening? What’s happening?

PC: I’m lost. I don’t know.

LRH: Hm? Your somatic strip is right there at the last moment. Give me a yes or no on this:

Are your parents dead? What was flashed?

PC: I was going to say no.

LRH: All right, let’s contact the moment they’re leaving.

PC: (makes a small noise)

LRH: What’s the last moment you see them? Your somatic strip is right there. The last moment you see them. How old? (snap!)

PC: (groans)

LRH: How old? How old? You know. How old? What was the number that flashed?

PC: (sigh) Two, but if it’s 2, it’s so I’ll never forget them.

LRH: You what?

PC: I’ll never forget them.

LRH: Who told you that? Give me a yes or no on this: Did somebody tell you to forget them?

(snap!)

PC: Yes!

LRH: Who said “Forget them”? (pause) All right, the words in which you were told to forget them will flash into your mind: one-two-three-four-five (snap!). (pause) Give me a yes or no on this: words in English? (snap!)

PC: All I get is “Take her away.”

LRH: Go over that again.

PC: Take her away. Take her away. Take her away. Oh. (moan)

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, I won’t!

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t!

LRH: Go over it again, “Take her away.” Go over the phrase again. “Take her away.”

PC: Take her away. No, no. (heavy grief)

LRH: Go over it again, “Take her away.”

PC: Take her away take her awa(convulsive sobbing) No, no, no.

LRH: Go over the phrase “Take her away.”

PC: (crying loudly)

LRH: Go over the phrase “Take her away.”

PC: (sobbing)

LRH: Go over the phrase again.

PC: Take her away. No. Oh — oh — no, no, no, no. (sobbing)

LRH: Go over the phrase “Take her away.”

PC: Take her away, take her — no!LRH: Go over the phrase again, “Take her away.”

PC: Take her — take her away I don’t want to go, I don’t want to go. (pleading and sobbing)

LRH: Go over the phrase “Take her away.”

PC: (crying)

LRH: Go over the phrase “Take her away.”

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over the phrase “Take her away.”

PC: Take — oh — it hurts. “Don’t, don’t, don’t.

LRH: Let’s go over the words “Take her away.”

PC: Take — take — no, no.

LRH: Go over the word “No” now.

PC: No, no, no, no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No!

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No-o. (crying hard)

LRH: Go over it again. Go over the word “No.” Go over the word “No” again.

PC: No, no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No — oh — oh, no, no, no, no, no, no-o-o, don’t go, no. (sobbing very heavily)

LRH: (almost a whisper) Go over it again.

PC: Oh, oh, oh, oh, it — no....

LRH: Go over it again. (pc still crying hard) Go over the words “No, don’t.” Go over “Don’t.”

PC: Don t. Oh, no, no, no, no, no — oh — oh.... (sobbing)

LRH: Go over “No” again, please. Go over the word “No” again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Na — na — no....

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over the words “Don’t, don’t.”

PC: Don’t, don’t, don’t.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t, don’t, oh, don’t, don’t, don’t.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t, don’t, don’t, don’t, don’t, don’t, don’t — don’t. (more heavy sobbing)

LRH: Go over the word “Don’t.”

PC: (sobbing)

LRH: very softly) “Don’t, don’t.”

PC: Don’t, do-o-n’t, no, no.

LRH: “No, no”? Go over the word “No.”

PC: No, no, no, no, no.

LRH: All right, go over the words “Take her away.” Go over “Take her away.”

PC: Take — t

LRH: Go over the words “Take her away.” Go over the words “Take her away.” Go over it again.

PC: Take-o-o-oh, no. Don’ttake her, don’t take her, don’ttake her, don’t, don’t, don’t, don’t, don’t, don’t take her, don’t take her, no. (more heavy grief

LRH: Go over “Don’t take her.” (pcsobbing) Go over it again. Go over “Don’t take her.” Go over “Don’t take her.”

PC: Don’t.

LRH: Go over “Don’t take her.”

PC: Don’t-no....

LRH: Go over “Don’t take her.”

PC: Don’t.

LRH: Go over the words “Don’t take her.”

PC: Don’t.

LRH: (uerysoftly) “Don’t take her.”

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her, don’t.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t, don’t take her, don’t.”

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, don’t take her. Don’t take her. Don’t take her. Don’t take her. Don’t-don’t, don’t take her. No - ohoh -oh-oh -oh....

LRH: Go over “Don’t take her.”

PC: Don’t, don’t, don’t, don’t-no, don’t. (sobbing) No, don’t.

LRH: Go over the phrase “Don’t take her.”

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her. Don’t take her. Don’t! (very vehemently) Don’t take her. (heavy grief)

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Oh....

LRH: Go over it again. “Don’t take her.”

PC: Ooooh -o-o-o-oh

LRH: Go over the phrase “Don’t take her.”

PC: Oh, no (still crying hard)

LRH: “We’ve got to take her.” Go over that. Go over the phrase. Go over the phrase “We’ve got to take her.”

PC: (stops crying) We’ve got to take her.

LRH: Go over that phrase.

PC: We’ve got to take her.

LRH: Just go over the phrase.

PC: We’ve got to take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: We’ve got to take her.

LRH: Is that phrase there?

PC: Oh....

LRH: Go over the phrase “Take her away.”

PC: Take-take her away. Take her away. Take her away. Take her away. Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again, “Take her away.”

PC: Take her away. Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away. Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Oh.... No, no,no,no,no,no.

LRH: Go over the word “No” again.

PC: No, no, no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No!

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No!

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, no,no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, no,no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: (crying)

LRH: Go over it again. No.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, no,no,n-n-n-no,no,no,no, no-no-no-no-no-no-no-no. (sobbing)

LRH: All right, let’s contact the first moment they say “Don’t take her away.” Who’s talking when they say “Don’t take her away”?

(pc sobbing throughout) Who’s talking? Who’s talking? Who’s talking? A woman? Is a woman talking? Is a woman talking?

PC: (sobbing) Oh — oh — oh — oh

LRH: Where is the woman lying, if it’s a woman? Is it a woman or a man?

PC: (sobbing) Oh — oh....

LRH: What’s your visio on this? What do you see through this?

PC: (sobbing) Oh — oh....

LRH: What’s your visio? Is anybody in bed? Is anybody in bed?

PC: I don’t know.

LRH: Just take a look. Is somebody in bed? Is it inside?

PC: Yes.

LRH: Is it inside? Inside a house? Is it inside a house?

PC: No, it was in bed. It was . . .

LRH: It was in a bed? Or wasn’t?

PC: It was.

LRH: All right. Who is lying in bed? Who is lying in the bed? Let’s look.

PC: (groans)

LRH: Let’s look.

PC: (sobs)

LRH: Let’s look. Who is lying in the bed? Are you lying in the bed?

PC: No.

LRH: Where are you?

PC: (sobbing)

LRH: Who has got you? Is somebody carrying you? (pause) You know. Is somebody carrying you? (pause) Hm? What’s the person in the bed saying? What’s the person in the bed saying?

PC: She — oh.

LRH: What’s the person in the bed saying? (pc groans) What’s the person in the bed saying? Hm? What does the person in the bed say? Do you see somebody in the bed?

PC: She just keeps tossing back and forth.

LRH: And what’s she saying while she tosses back and forth? Are you outside yourself here? Can you see yourself in somebody else’s arms or see yourself with somebody else there?

PC: I’m looking at her.

LRH: Oh, are you in somebody’s arms? Hm?

PC: But I can’t see who they are.

LRH: Oh, they are behind you? (pause) All right, let’s take a look at her. What’s she saying as she tosses back and forth? What kind of a noise is she making?

PC: (coughs) All I hear is “Don’t go away, don’t go away, don’t go away.

LRH: What’s she saying again, “Don’t go away”? Does she just say that over and over?

PC: Yes.

LRH: And what’s she doing there?

PC: Going back and forth and back and forth.

LRH: Yeah.

PC: Don t go away. Don’t go away. Don’t go away.

LRH: How big are you in comparison to that bed? Is the bed very big? (pause) Is the bed very big? Very small? How does the bed look to you?

PC: Four-poster bed.

LRH: Does it look big or small to you?

PC: It’s big.

LRH: Hm-hm. Does it look bigger than most beds?

PC: No, it just looks like the average bed. It has a flounce around it.

LRH: Hm-hm.

PC: There is a holy picture on the wall.

LRH: Yeah, and who is in the bed? (pause) You know who is in this bed. Who is saying “Don’t take her away”? (pause) Go over the words “Don’t take her.”

PC: Don’t, don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her. Don’t take her. Don’t take her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her.

LRH: (very softly) Go over it again.

PC: (pause; coughs)

LRH: Go over it again. Go over the words “Don’t take her.” Go over the words “No, no, no.”

PC: No, no.

LRH: Who is saying “No, no, no”?

PC: No.

LRH: Who is saying “No, no”?

PC: No.

LRH: Who is saying “No, no”? Who is saying the no? Take a look at the person saying “No.”

PC: She’s got her face up against the wall.

LRH: And what is she saying?

PC: No, no, no, no.

LRH: Is she talking in English?

PC: No.

LRH: In what language is she using the phrase? (pause) What’s “no” in Russian? (pause) What’s “no” in Russian? (pause) What’s “no” in Russian? (pause) “No” in Russian will flash into your mind when I count from one to five: one-two-three-four-five (snap.l). (pause) What flashed into your mind?

PC: No.

LRH: “No”?

PC: No.

LRH: Are you getting sonic on this? (pause) Huh? Do you get a sonic on what shed saying? Do you? Do you get a sonic on what she is saying? Can you hear her?

PC: (softly) Hm, hm, no, no.

LRH: Go over the words “No, no, no” again.

PC: No, no, no, no, no, no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, no, no, no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No, no, no, no. (coughs)

LRH: Go over it again. Is she coughing? Is she coughing? Can you hear her cough?

PC: (pause) No, but I can see her so plainly. (pause) No, no, no.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No.

LRH: What’s Russian for “no”? What’s Russian for “no”?

PC: I don’t know!

LRH: You don’t know?

PC: No-o....

LRH: Go over the word “Nyet.”

PC: Nyet, nyet

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Nyet, nyet, nyet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Nyet, nyetLRH: “Nyet.”

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again. Go over the word “Nyet.”

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Nyet. O-oh

LRH: Go over the word “Nyet.”

PC: O-o-h....

LRH: Got a somatic?

PC: Oh....

LRH: Do you see her on the bed?

PC: (moans)

LRH: Hm? Go over the word “Nyet.”

PC: Um-m....

LRH: Are you hurt in this?

PC: Oh, ooh, my head. Oh, my head.

LRH: Yeah. Can you see her there on the bed?

PC: Yes.

LRH: Is she holding her head?

PC: Oh-h — oh-h....

LRH: Hm? Go over the word “Nyet.”

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Oh — oh — oh.... Oh.... (pause)

LRH: Let’s go over “Nyet” again.

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Nyet.

LRH: Go over it again. How do you say “Take her away” in Russian? (pause) When I count from one to five, it will flash into your mind: one-two-three-four-five (snap!). How do you say “Take her away” in Russian? You know what it is.

PC: Oh.

LRH: You know what the phrase is. You know what the phrase is. “Take her away.” In Russian, what would it be? When I count from one to five, the first word of it will flash into your mind, this first syllable will flash into your mind: one-two-three-four five (snap!).

PC: No.

LRH: Did you get any flash at all?

PC: No.

LRH: Any words occur to you at all?

PC: All I get is a thumping, thumping, thumping!

LRH: Ah, a thumping sound?

PC: Oh, her hair is plaited.

LRH: Hm-hm. What’s she doing?

PC: She’s just moaning.

LRH: Just moaning?

PC: With her face up against the wall.

LRH: And how is she moaning? Imitate her moan.

PC: Um-um. . uh. . . uh. . .

LRH: Imitate her moaning.

PC: Um-um-um.

LRH: All right, go to the moment they take you away from her. Go to the moment they take you out the door. Go to the moment they take you out the door. All right, you’re right there. What’s she saying now? (pc breathing heavily) What’s she saying now? Go to the moment they take you out the door. Is somebody carrying you? (pause)

PC: No.

LRH: Is somebody carrying you? (pause) Who says “Be quiet” there? Who says “Be quiet”?

Go over the words “Be quiet.”

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Something else is trying to say something.

LRH: Go over that “Be quiet.”

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Oh-h. It hurts. “Be quiet.”

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet (pause; sniffling)

LRH: Go over it again, “Be quiet.”

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: All right, give me a yes or no on this: English?

PC: No.

LRH: Russian?

PC: I don’t know what it is. “Be quiet. “LRH: Go over the words “Be quiet” again.

PC: Be quietLRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quietLRH: (whispers) “Be quiet.”

PC: Be quietLRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be — be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet. (coughing)

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: (coughs again)

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: No. Um-m-m — be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Be quiet.

LRH: Who says “Be quiet” there?

PC: Be quiet, be quiet, be . . .

LRH: Who says “Be quiet” there? (pause) Who says “Be quiet”? Who says “Be quiet” there? Does anybody say “Don’t talk”? Give me a yes or no on this: Anybody say “Don’t talk”? (snaps)

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk. Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again. Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk.” (gradually louder)

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: They never let me talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Oh — oh . . . Don’t . . .

LRH: Go over “They never let me talk.”

PC: They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. (in grief)

LRH: Go over it again, “They never let me talk.”

PC: They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. They never let me talk. Never. Never, never, never.

LRH: Go over that again, “Never.”

PC: Never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, neuer — no.... (crying hard)

LRH: Go over it again. “They never let me talk.” Go over that.

PC: They never let me talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: They never let me talk. They never, never let me talk.” (crying)

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: They never let me talk.” Oh — oh — oh — oh....

LRH: Who is saying that? Who is saying that?

PC: Oh — oh — oh.... Oh....

LRH: Who is saying that?

PC: Oh.

LRH: Was he the person on the bed?

PC: Oh.

LRH: What’s the person on the bed saying?

PC: Oh, oh.

LRH: Doyou see this person on the bed still?

PC: Oh, oh, oh.

LRH: Go over the words “They never let me talk.” Go over “They never let me talk.”

PC: They never let me talk. They never let me talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: They never let me talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: They never let me talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: They never let me talk.

LRH: Go over that “I mustn’t tell.”

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I. mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again. Go over it again. I mustn’t tell.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Oh — oh — oh....

LRH: Go over it again. I mustn’t tell.

PC: (groaning)

LRH: Go over it again. I mustn’t tell.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I mustn’t tell. I mustn’t tell.

LRH: Next phrase.

PC: I can’t tell. (starting to speak breathlessly)

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I can’t tell. I can’t tell. I can’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I can’t tell.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I can’t tell. I can’t tell. I can’t tell. I — I — I. . .

LRH: Go over “I can’t tell.”

PC: I can’t tell. I can’t tell. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t tell. I can’t.” Oh — oh — oh — oh — oh....

LRH: Go over it again, “I can’t tell.”

PC: Oh — oh — oh — oh — oh, I’m so cold.

LRH: Go over that again.

PC: Oh, I’m cold. I’m cold. I’m cold. I’m cold. I’m cold.

LRH: Go to the moment they bury her. Go to the moment they bury her. What do they tell you? Who says “Don’t cry”? Who says “Don’t cry”? Go over the words “Don’t cry.”

PC: Don’t — don’t cry.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t cry

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t cry.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t cry.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t cry.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t cry.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t cry.

LRH: Who’s saying it? Go over it again.

PC: Don’t cry.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry. Don’t cry.

Don’t cry. Don’t cry.

LRH: Who is saying “Don’t cry”?

PC: Don’t cry.

LRH: Is your mother saying it? Is your mother saying it?

PC: Don’t cry. Don’t cry.

LRH: Is your mother saying it?

PC: Don’t cry.

LRH: Is your mother saying “Don’t cry”? Do you get a visio on somebody there? Who’s speaking?

PC: I see the coffin in the ground.

LRH: You see a coffin?

PC: In the ground.

LRH: Being lowered in the ground?

PC: Uh-huh.

LRH: Does anybody say “You will forget her”?

PC: (groans)

LRH: Huh? Anybody say “You’ll forget her”? (pause) Go over the phrase “You will forget her.” Go over the phrase “You will forget her.”

PC: You’ll — y-you’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. You...

LRH: Go over the phrase again, “You’ll forget her.”

PC: You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her.

LRH: Go over it again, “You’ll forget her.”

PC: You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. You’ll forget - ouch. “You’ll forget her. You’ll — you’ll forget her. You’ll . . .

LRH: What’s the matter? Who’s saying this? Is this at the funeral? Is it at the funeral?

PC: (sigh)

LRH: Let’s go over the phrase “You’ll forget her.”

PC: “You — you’ll — oh . . .

LRH: Any other phrase that tries to come into your mind. Any other phrase. “You’ll forget her.”

PC: You’ll forget her.”

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: You’ll forget her. Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Tell me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Tell me, tell me.

LRH: “Tell me you’ll forget her”?

PC: Tell me, tell me, oh.... Tell me. Tell me you ... Tell me....

LRH: Go over this phrase again, “Tell me you’ll forget her.”

PC: Don’t, don’t. Tell me you’ll forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her. Tell me you’ll . . .

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Tell me you it forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her.

LRH: Go over that again.

PC: Tell me you it forget her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Tell me you it forget her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Tell...

LRH: Who’s speaking? Who’s speaking there? Go over “Tell me you’ll forget her.”

PC: Tell me you it forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her.

LRH: Look at the person that’s speaking.

PC: Tell me you it forget her. Tell me you’ll forget her.

LRH: What’s your visio here?

PC: Tell me you al forget her.

LRH: What’s your visio? Hm? Do you see anybody?

PC: No, I don’t, I don’t.

LRH: Are you in the dark?

PC: It’s gray.

LRH: Is it in a cemetery?

PC: Oh, I don’t know where it is but . . .

LRH: Is it in a cemetery? Who is there? Who is talking?

PC: (pause; moans)

LRH: Who is talking? Look at the person who is saying “Tell me you’ll forget her,” or anything like that. Look at the person who is saying this. Let’s go over the phrase “She’s too young to remember.”

PC: She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remem ber. She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remem ber. She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember. Uh — oh — oh — oh

LRH: Go over this, “She’s too young to remember.”

PC: She s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember. She’s too . . .

LRH: Do you see anybody saying that? Do you see anybody?

PC: I don’t like them.

LRH: You don’t like them? What are they doing? What does this person look like that you don’t like?

PC: It’s a priest.

LRH: A priest. And what’s the priest doing?

PC: He’s standing there.

LRH: And what’s happening? (pause) What’s happening? What’s happening? Tell me. Tell me. Go over “She’s too young to remember.”

PC: She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember.

LRH: Is this what the priest is saying?

PC: Yes.

LRH: Is there a coffin there?

PC: No, just people.

LRH: Just people. And what’s the priest saying?

PC: She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember. She’s too young to remember.

LRH: Who says “You’ll forget her”? Go over the phrase “You’ll forget her.”

PC: You’ll — you’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. “ I’m cold.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her.”

LRH: Who’s talking?

PC: You’ll forget her.”

LRH: Who is saying this?

PC: Oh, there are so many voices.

LRH: And what are the voices saying? Let’s go over “You’ll forget her.”

PC: You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her. You’ll forget her.”

LRH: Are there a lot of people there?

PC: Yes.

LRH: Let’s go back to the last time you see her. Go back to the last time you see her. What’s she doing there? (pause) What’s she doing there?

PC: (sniffing)

LRH: What’s she doing there?

PC: She’s ...

LRH: Go back to the last time she says good-bye to you. Go back to the last time she says good-bye to you. The last moment she says good-bye. (pause) Does she say good-bye to you? Hm? (pause) Let’s go over the phrase “Good-bye.”

PC: Good-bye.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Good-bye.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Good-bye.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Good-bye.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Good-bye.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Good-bye.

LRH: Go over it again. Do you get a visio on this?

PC: Good-bye. Good-bye. Good-bye.

LRH: What visio do you get on this?

PC: (pause; grunts)

LRH: What visio do you get on that word “good-bye”?

PC: Good-bye. Oh, it hurts in my head — oh.

LRH: What’s happening there, as you look at her? Do you see somebody with that “good bye”? Are you sick too, there, at that point? (pc moans) What’s the matter?

PC: Oh — oh — my head, my head, my head, my head, my head. Oh — oh — oh — my head — oh — oh — oh

LRH: Go over the words “My head.”

PC: My head. My head, my head, my head, my head, my head, my head, my head.

LRH: Is that your mother talking? Is your mother saying “My head”?

PC: Yes.

LRH: Well, go over the line.

PC: My head. My head. My head. My head. My head. My head. My head. My head. My head. My head. My head. My head.

LRH: Go over it again, “My head.”

PC: My head.

LRH: Is your mother sick? Take a look at your mother. Take a look at your mother.

PC: Oh — oh — oh.

LRH: Take a look at your mother. What does she look like? Where are you when you look at her?

PC: They are holding me down.

LRH: Holding you, what?

PC: Down.

LRH: Down where?

PC: To her.

LRH: Oh, yeah? And what are you saying to her? Can you see yourself? Are you outside yourself here?

PC: No, no. No.

LRH: You’re inside yourself? Hm?

PC: I can see her put her arms up.

LRH: Yeah, and what happens when she puts her arms up? What does she say when she puts her arms up?

PC: They’re holding me this way. Down, down.

LRH: And what happens? And what occurs? What does she say to you? What does she say to you? What does she say? You can tell me. You can tell me. You can tell me.

PC: (sigh)

LRH: What does she say? Please tell me.

PC: Oh — oh....

LRH: Does your head ache? Does your head ache? (pause) Go over the line “She’ll forget me.”

PC: She’ll forget me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’ll forget me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’ll forget me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’ll forget me. She’ll forget me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She it forget meLRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’ll forget me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’ll forget me.

LRH: Does she say this?

PC: She’ll forget me.

LRH: Does she say this?

PC: She’ll forget me.

LRH: Hm?

PC: No. No. No. No.

LRH: What does she say? (pause) Do they say they are going to take you away? Who says something like “Control yourself” here? Go over the words “Control yourself.”

PC: Control yourself. Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. I won’t, I won’t. I won’t, I won’t. I won’t, I won’t. I won’t, I won’t. I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t. “ (pc’s volume increasing to near shout as she says each phrase)

LRH: Go over the words “Control yourself” again. Give me a yes or no on this: Is this in English? (snap!)

PC: Yes.

LRH: All right, go over the words “Control yourself.”

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself.

LRH: Who is saying that? (pause) Look at the person who is saying it. What does this person look like? Please tell me. (pause) Please tell me. What does this person look like? Please answer me. What does this person look like? (pause) What do you see? Go over the words “Control yourself” again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Control yourself. Oh — oh — oh — oh

LRH: Go over the words Control yourself again.

PC: Control yourself. Control yourself.

LRH: Who is saying it?

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Can you tell me who’s saying it?

PC: Control yourself.

LRH: Can you see anybody saying it? Hm? Please answer me. Can you see somebody saying it? Hm? Can you see somebody there, huh? Please tell me. All right, go over the words Don’t talk.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk. Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t talk. Don’t talk. Don’t talk.

LRH: Go over Don’t tell me.

PC: Don’t tell me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t tell me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t tell me.

LRH: Go over the words “Don’t take her away.”

PC: Don’t . . . “

LRH: Go over the words “Don’t take her away.”

PC: Don’t — don’t take her away. “

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Don’t take her away. Don’t take her away. Don’t take her away. Don’t take her away. Don’t take her away.

LRH: Go over the words “Take her away.”

PC: Take her away”?

LRH: Yeah.

PC: Take her away

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away. Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take — take — take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take her away. Take her away. Take her away. Take her away. Take her away.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Take — oh — take her away. Take her away. Take her away. Take her away.

LRH: Can you get a visio as anybody says that?

PC: No, no, no, no, no, no.

LRH: Do you get any visio at all?

PC: It’s just gray, just gray, just gray, just gray. (groan)

LRH: Go over the words “Just gray.”

PC: Just gray, just gray, just gray, just gray, just gray. Gray, gray.

LRH: Go to the moment she dies. The somatic strip will go to the moment she dies. Take a look at her as she dies. Take a look at her as she dies. What do you see? Please tell me. What do you see? What do you see? Please talk to me.

PC: I don’t see.

LRH: All right, go to the moment she dies. The somatic strip will go to the moment she dies. The somatic strip will go to the moment she dies.

PC: No. (pause) Oh, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me.

LRH: Go to the moment they bury her.

PC: (moans)

LRH: The moment they bury her. Go to the moment they bury her. What do you see? (pause) What do you see? (pause) All right. Give me yes or no on this: Is this in English? (snaps) Is this in English? (snap!)

PC: Yes.

LRH: All right. Go over the words “I won’t tell you.”

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell youLRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell youLRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you I won’t tell you I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I won’t tell you.

LRH: Who is talking? Who is talking? You know who is talking. Do you get a sonic on this?

PC: I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you. I won’t tell you.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: Oh, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me.

LRH: Let’s go over “I won’t tell you.”

PC: I won’t tell you

LRH: Let’s go over “Get out.”

PC: Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. Get out. No. No.

LRH: Go over the phrase “Get out.”

PC: Get out.

LRH: Who’s talking? Who says “Get out”?

PC: Get out.

LRH: Can you see who’s talking?

PC: No, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t.

LRH: Can’t what?

PC: I can’t.

LRH: Can’t what?

PC: I can’t.

LRH: Go over “I can’t” again.

PC: I can’t. I can’t. I can’t — oh.”

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I can’t

LRH: How old? (snap!)

PC: I can too. I can too. I can too. I can’t, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t. “

LRH: Return to the moment your mother is giving you a bottle — the moment she is giving you a bottle. Earlier — the moment she is giving you a bottle.

PC: Oh, don’t ask.

LRH: How does she look when she gives you a bottle, hm? Let’s take a look at her giving you a bottle. How does she look? Let’s contact that crib again. (pause) All right. Let’s go to the moment you are sitting there in the crib. Let’s pick up the same scene you had before. The moment you’re sitting there in the crib. All right, let’s reach up. How does the crib smell? Hm, how does the crib smell? Hm? How does it smell there? Where is your mother? Pick it up at the moment your mother comes in. Is this your mother? Let’s take a look at her. Pick it up there at the moment that you hold your arms up to her and she’s coming into the room.

PC: She says, “I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her.”

LRH: Go over this, “I want to keep her.”

PC: I want to keep her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I want to keep her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I want to keep her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I. want to keep her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I want to keep her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I want to keep her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I want to keep her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her. Oh, oh, oh. I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her. I want to keep her.

LRH: All right, let’s go over the phrase “She’s just like me.”

PC: She’s just like me. She’s just like me. She’s just like me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’s just like me. She’s just like me. She’s just like me. She’s just like me.”

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’s just like me. She’s just like me. She’s just like me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’s just like me.

LRH: Go over it again.

PC: She’s just like me. She ‘s just like me. She’s just like me.

LRH: What’s your visio on this now? What’s your visio on this? Who is speaking on that

“She’s just like me”?

PC: Oh.

LRH: Who is speaking there, on “She’s just like me,” hm? Who is speaking? Who is speaking? Take a look at her. (pause) All right, shift into your own valence. Go on, get into yourself now. Feel this person’s arms around you. Feel this person’s arms around you. Feel this person’s arms around you. Feel the arms around you. Now, look around the room. What do you see around the room? What do you see? What do you see around the room? Hm? What do you see around the room? Tell me. Tell me. Tell me. What do you see around the room? (pc sighs) What do you see? What do you see around the room? The somatic strip will now go back to the moment when your mother picked you up in her arms. You were sitting in the crib and your mother picked you up in her arms. You got that? Hm? Contact the moment when it happened. Contact the moment when it happened.

PC: I don’t ever want to leave.

LRH: (laughs) Hm-hm, I know. What does she look like? Huh? Tell me. It’ll be more fun for you if you tell me.

PC: I Iike it best when she was there on the hillside.

LRH: Oh, yeah? Oh, you see her on the hillside there?

PC: Hm-hm.

LRH: Have you ever seen her before?

PC: Yes.

LRH: All right. Let’s take a look at her. You can remember how she looks there. Let’s take a look at her. Now you can remember seeing her here. You can see her when you want to see her.

PC: Uh-huh.

LRH: Now let’s take a look at your father. All right, let’s take a look at your father. Let’s pick up a scene there of your father.

PC: That’s when she’s standing there....

LRH: What does he say?

PC: She had a great big smile and was saying, “I’ve got a secret I can’t tell. I’ve got a secret I can’t tell. I’ve got a secret I can’t tell.”

LRH: (chuckles) What’s shed saying? Now, what’s she doing?

PC: Standing there saying, “I’ve got a secret I can’t tell.”

LRH: (laughing) Yeah.

PC: Uh-huh.

LRH: Who is she saying this to? Go over that phrase again, “I’ve got a secret I can’t tell.”

PC: I’ve got a secret I can’t tell. “

LRH: Okay. Go over that again.

PC: I’ve got a secret I can’t tell. “

LRH: All right. Go over it again.

PC: I’ve got a secret I can’t tell. “

LRH: And what did she say then? That’s the secret, huh? All right. Is there a man with her there?

PC: He doesn’t come this time.

LRH: All right. Let’s go back to the time he does come. Let’s return to the moment he does come. Okay? The somatic strip will go back to a moment he does come. (pause) Okay, will you come up to present time now?

PC: Yes.

LRH: All the way up to present time. All the way up to present time. Present time.

PC: I don’t want to.

LRH: (laughing) Yeah. I know. Come up to present time. How old are you? (snap!)

PC: Huh ?

LRH: How old are you? (snap!)

PC: I don’t know.

LRH: All right, come on up to present time. What’s the date? (snap!)

PC: Date?

LRH: Hm-hm.

PC: Oh.

LRH: What’s the date? (snap!)

PC: Twenty-eighth.

LRH: Twenty-eighth of what?

PC: Oh, of September.

LRH: Ah, twenty-eighth of September. What year?

PC: 1950. Anybody knows that.

LRH: (laughing) All right. What’s the date again?

PC: Twenty-eighth of September.

LRH: All right. What year?

PC: Fifty.

LRH: All right, open your eyes. Canceled. (snap!) Five-four-three-two-one (snap!). Do you remember what you saw?

PC: But why don’t they tell me?

LRH: Tell you what?

PC: Why don’t they tell me where they went?

LRH: Where who went, honey? Your parents?

PC: Yes.

LRH: I don’t know. I don’t know. Who should have told you?

PC: Well, why do they keep it a secret?

LRH: Is it a secret?

PC: Well, they won’t tell me.

LRH: Nobody has told you?

PC: No.

LRH: Do you know where your grandparents are?

PC: No, nothing.

LRH: Who raised you?

PC: People.

LRH: Yeah? You mean you haven’t any parents?

PC: No, I haven’t any mother or father.

LRH: Is this the first time you ever saw them? (pause) All right, were these your mother and father that you saw tonight?

PC: It must be; it’s the second time I ever saw them.

LRH: The second time? When did you see them the first time?

PC: One night in auditing.

LRH: Oh, yeah? Oh, you’ve been in auditing before?

PC: Just about 14 hours, I think.

LRH: Oh, really? I didn’t know this. All right. You saw them before.

PC: That’s if that’s my father.

LRH: That’s if they are your mother and father.

PC: That’s what bothers me, but I never saw them before.

LRH: Hm-hm.

PC: Not even in imagination when I tried to.

LRH: Oh. But you’ve seen two people now.

PC: That’s it, but who are they and why won’t they tell me? I mean that’s what I want to know.

LRH: Oh, okay. You have got an auditor then?

PC: No, he walked off and never said anything.

LRH: Oh, I see. All right, I tell you what you do. You get somebody to take you back across the time track. Do you know your name?

PC: No, nothing.

LRH: All right. Just tell your somatic strip to go to a time there when your name was mentioned, back to the time before they left. You will find out all about it. Somebody will have to keep slugging at that grief charge. That’s going to take about eight to ten hours of work. Okay? Thank you very much.

I hope that what we have covered here these last few evenings may assist you materially.

May you never be the same again.